This week’s playlist is probably more emotional and dramatic than I intended.

I’ve been thinking a lot about the concept of ‘home’ lately.

The other night when I was returning to Edinburgh, I associated it with going home.  It made me really wonder if ‘home’ was only a physical place or if ‘home’ could also be a state of mind.  Whether you could call two different places ‘home’ for very different reasons.

Lawrence will always be my hometown.  It’s where I grew up.  It’s where I learned how to read, how ride a bike, and drive a car. But, I am slowly finding that starting a new chapter in my life here in Edinburgh is creating a new sense of home.  Maybe it’s because I left everything behind to move here.  I had to start over completely and not just in a ‘starting college.’  I didn’t know anyone.  All my friends and family are over 3,000 miles away.  I knew that when I got on the plane that I wouldn’t see them for at least five months.  I was forced to find a new home because I left my other one on the other side of the Atlantic.  But, I made a conscious choice in coming here.  I knew that I would have to completely start over and while that terrified me – I knew that it was something that I had to do.

I guess maybe it has to do with a sense of belonging.  I always felt a little out of place in Lawrence – like there was always something missing.  I don’t really feel that same ‘out of placeness’ here.